Often times I feel the need to ignore my wants and desires, to hide behind a mask and begrudge myself. Shakespeare is correct – you should always aim to be true to yourself. Be who you are, not who you think others want you to be.
Too often we are caught up in the rat-race of life. Get up, get ready, go to work, work all day, get home, cook, (clean if you can), get the kids sorted, go to bed. Maybe some downtime in there, usually not. The daily grind is exhausting. I feel like a sheep following the shepherd of life. I want to be the wolf that trails at the edges and does not compromise even in the face of death. Maybe that sounds overly dramatic, but it gets the point across.
I dream of the day I can colour my hair weird and wonderful colours, I’ve even thought of putting my hair in small dreds…but that would look awful on me (I think). Instead, I mainstream myself. Normal hair, normal clothes, normal, normal, normal. It’s not who I am in the least. I also know that I will not get to retire for at least another 20 years or more because of the way our government is. It’s deflating.
I must find other ways of being true to me. This blog is one of them. I love music, I love to write, I love poetry. I can be anything I want to be on here and love it.
David Bowie – Space Oddity
Bonus: Commander Chris Hadfield – Space Oddity