“Keep your face always toward the sunshine – and shadows will fall behind you.” ― Walt Whitman (Source: Goodreads).

I’m trying. I am really trying. People who are naturally optimistic or have a natural happy/positive attitude have no idea how hard it is for the rest of us to get there. It’s an uphill battle where every setback feels like 10 steps back instead of 1 or 2.

I am headachy. I have so much pressure in my face today that I ache. I have my MRI today at 5 pm. The machine itself does not bother me. I actually find it relaxing since I don’t have to do anything for anyone and nothing is expected of me. I can just lay there and get lost in the noise. It’s waiting for the results that’s nerve wracking. I know that if they come back next week, it’s not good. If it takes longer than I’m ok (I hope, or it just wasn’t important enough to drag me in).

I’m hoping for the later of course. But I am also hoping they can figure out why my head, shoulders and upper back go numb. That would be ideal. Something easily remedied would be awesome. MS progression, not so much.

Some days I just wish I could break free of all of it and be the person I dream of being.

Is that weird?

Queen – I want to break free