“Worrying is carrying tomorrow’s load with today’s strength- carrying two days at once. It is moving into tomorrow ahead of time. Worrying doesn’t empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.” ― Corrie ten Boom

I wish I could flick a switch and turn off my anxiety. Life would be so much simpler if I could. I wish I could shut out the voices that bring me to panic. I wish I could shut out the fears, the worse-case-scenarios, the dread, nightmares. I wish I could shut it all out.

My life should be relatively carefree.

Twisting around and around the willow tree
dancing round and round
an eddy of thoughts
whirling, swirling
down down down
into the depths
deeper deeper deeper
creeping in on the sun
drowning out the light
suspending all in its depths

The Police – Every Breath You Take