“I need you, I need you, I need you right now
Yeah, I need you right now
So don’t let me, don’t let me, don’t let me down
I think I’m losing my mind now
It’s in my head, darling I hope
That you’ll be here, when I need you the most
So don’t let me, don’t let me, don’t let me down D-Don’t let me down” – The Chainsmokers (Writers): Emily Warren, Andrew Taggart, Scott Friedman, Scott Harris)

It’s funny how some songs can stick in the brain. I’ve been loving this one. The beat, the lyrics…I realized why.

I’m on my first day back to work after being off for about 2 1/2 weeks. Doctor ordered. I didn’t want to be off. My depression medication was making me worse, not better (Effexor – so not awesome), my sleep medication causing memory lose (zoplicone – so not awesome) and the combination of the two with my MS made for a chronically tired, chronically depressed me.

Depression is a funny little demon. It doesn’t just affect your mind – it affects you as a whole. Your perceptions, your energies, your pain – yes, it DOES cause physical pain. All of those together make for a very inactive person…the more inactive, the more weight, the more pain. Oh yay (sarcasm).

My husband has supported me every step of the way. He has to be one of the most patient, loving people I know. Between him and my kids, I had to get better…

I’m still in the fresh initial stages – but that boulder I’ve been dragging around is starting to feel lighter all the time.

The Chainsmokers feat. Daya – Don’t Let Me Down