Smiling
I walk to the end of
happiness
dropping off into
a swirl of
depression
anger
regret
self-hate
digging and clawing
lead to exhaustion
and
fear
fear is the happiness
killer
fear of the unknown
of a
happiness
not burdened by guilt
burdened by a need
to be all
to
everyone
guilt of parenthood
be health
be strong
be everything
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU
being everything
robs one of a sense
of self
a separate
but whole
happiness
is but a step away
a leap into a
cloud of emotion
waiting