Just Breathe

“To hurt is as human as to breathe.” ― J.K. Rowling, The Tales of Beedle the Bard

*Deep breath in*

*Deep breath out*

I have debated posting this, I may take it down…here it goes.

The week is only half way over, yet I feel like it has been months long.

My daughter was assaulted off of school grounds. A girl at her school started a rumour about her. This falsehood spread and a girl decided to act on it. She punched my daughter in the head a few times. My daughter is so brave – she didn’t fight back. Instead, she immediately reported it. The police are involved.

The shitty part – the girl is moving and the police are not able to give her the punishment that is called for. To make it worst, some of the rumour mongers actually filmed it. I haven’t been able to find it. The vice principals, the teachers, even the police involved all know that the rumour is completely false and made up to harm my daughter.

Teenagers can be assholes. These ones don’t care if it really is real or not. All they care about is that one person said she heard or read it – that’s all it took for these kids to turn on my daughter.

The girl who attacked her used to be a friend, supposedly.

My daughter has told me to drop it. She is calm, collected, and just doesn’t want to have anything to do with them.

I am her mom. I was bullied. I was told to suck it up.

Yes, my daughter can be sarcastic and lippy…but she has never said anything that deserved this. Hell, even if she DID say something, she still didn’t deserve this.

I really hate kids sometimes (not mine, but in general).

Anna Nalick – Just Breathe (Lyrics)

SHUT UP, BRAIN!

Anyone with anxiety can tell you what that title means.

lump in the throat

tears in the eyes

fears roll into fears

gods I hope no one dies

fuck I feel the bloat

don’t hear the cries

a hot knife that tears

my heart fries

or is that frying

the stress is trying

it feels like dying

on a curb lying

knots are tying

in my chest

there is no rest

never the best

always the worse

as though a curse

were spent

on me

thoughts running

strumming

humming

thrumming

spiral

twist

contort

distort

forever…

shut up, brain! You have it good! Just shut the fuck up!

*deep breath*

no relief

it’ll come

it’ll come