Carry On…

“Never stop just because you feel defeated. The journey to the other side is attainable only after great suffering.” ― Santosh Kalwar, Quote Me Everyday

I have an infection. A bad one. My pelvic lymph nodes are infected and the infection has spread. Needless to say I feel horrible…but I am NOT defeated.

I am so grateful for my changed eating habits. I think they are the only things keeping me going health wise right now. I eat a lot of fiber, drink a lot of water, eat a lot of vegetables, moderate portions, etc. If I was eating the way I was a few months ago I have no doubt I would be far worse off than I am right now.

There is always a silver lining to every dark cloud.

There is always a smile to wash away the stain the darkness.

There is always a shoulder to lean against when life’s burdens become too much.

I am grateful for my children, even when they drive me up the wall (I’m looking at you 17 year old child of mine who spams me on my phone).

I am so incredibly grateful for my youngest’s smile – he brightens up my mood in ways I can’t describe.

I am so grateful to my health providers, my nutritionist, my husband – they are the shoulder I lean on and I know I have been leaning a lot lately.

I am grateful I have some answers now as to why I have been feeling so run down. A light has finally appeared.

Kansas – Carry on my Wayward Son

Confession Time

“If you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember anything.” Mark Twain 

I have a confession to make.

I am addicted to Supernatural. Yes, the TV show.

It crept up on me. I honestly didn’t see it coming.

I’ve only watched through it a few times (read on the 4th watch through all seasons and catching up on this season – I think my husband is planning an intervention).

Why, you might ask? It’s the humour in the darkness. It’s all the lore.

It’s scenes like this –
{Kills me every time I see it}.

…and let’s not forget this gem –

Oh, and Castiel –

Seriously – adding Castiel just made it so much better…

Sheriff Jody –

…and Sheriff Donna –

{Sheriffs Jody & Donna should have their own spinoff show – seriously}

and Crowley –

…and and and…

The best thing about this show for me – I can sit and knit, have a glass of wine and just chill. I can do the same with other shows – I love Buffy, Doctor Who, Farscape, Red Dwarf, Star Trek (All of them), etc (most of which I can watch on Netflix! YAY! [I don’t have cable or satellite])…but there is just something about this show. It never seems to take itself too seriously, even in it’s darkest times.

Between the themed episodes, the survival rate of characters (LOL), the dry and dark humour, the self-deprecation – it’s my guilty pleasure.

Ok – I’m done. I am not usually the type to geek out publicly like this. I have certain things in my life I won’t do without – my comics, my computer (for gaming and photos), and certain shows.

Kansas – Carry On Wayward Son

Something on my Mind

Numbness. Lots of it. Ever have that internal debate with yourself whether something is bad enough to go get checked by a doctor? I was at our local ER a week ago for a lung infection (yay prednisone). I don’t want to be seen as a hypochondriac. I have a mild form of MS. My head is numb – forehead, head, neck. I feel weird but can’t put a finger on how I feel weird. That’s weird, right?

So, I’m sitting here at work, trying to be functional and failing. What do I do? Blog about it. The numbness is down to my upper back/shoulders, and into my face. I am beyond exhausted – that tiredness where you actually feel awake, but know you are really tired. The struggle is real folks. Quicksand all around me.

Maybe if I’m like this tomorrow I’ll go in…maybe. Hubby works till later, kids need to be tended to, baby picked up from the sitter. Push the exhaustion and numbness aside and carry on.

Kansas – Carry On My Wayward Son