“You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.” ― Albert Camus
Happiness.
Even the word has a certain expression of its own meaning.
Happiness. What joy is derived in the every day that makes happiness? We must choose to be happy, to be joyful, to be grateful.
Anger and hate are soul consuming destructive forces which many confuse for constructive reasoning.
When we are happy, when we let go of that negativity – we are truly free and alive. When we let go, we truly live.
I find as I age that I need to find happiness. The more I let go of the past and the derision of the present, the more happiness I am able to find. I do not turn a blind eye to the world around me. As I said earlier, I am roaring inside. But I am becoming more at peace with myself. I am finding ‘me’ and by extension I am finding happiness.
“Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.” ― Rabindranath Tagore, Stray Birds
I read this quote and it literally caught my breath. One simple phrase, such depth of image.
There is so much negativity everywhere lately. The reasons vary. Both real and imagine wrongs are being verbally fought over, an emotional war of words and hate.
We need more love, peace, and understanding in our world.
It can’t rain all the time – and though the clouds that loom are darkening, there is always a crack that allows the sun to shine. When it does, a rainbow of life filters through. A simple image that carries a lifetime of gratitude and contentment with it.
I wish we as a whole (the earth) could practice gratitude in each day, contentment in the moments that are there, peace, and love. How much better would we all be.
I watched “Tomorrowland” with my family the other day. The object that amplifies all that negativity in that movie world reminded me of how much negativity we, as humans, put forth into the unknown. Our hatreds, angers, fears, loathing – all of the negative spilling out in waves of self-fulfilling prophecies.
My husband and I watched “Doctor Strange” on Sunday past. It, too, touched on this concept of the power of the mind. Yes, it was a very fictionalized version of it, but nonetheless it was there.
These two movies has had me thinking about the energies of everything about us and our connection to it. Science has proven that there is an energy that connects every thing that is around us. To quote Carl Sagan, “The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars. We are made of starstuff.”
I think it’s time I get back to my studies. I have been away from them for far too long…
Jane Siberry – It Can’t Rain All The Time (from the motion picture “The Crow”)
“Live, travel, adventure, bless, and don’t be sorry.” ― Jack Kerouac(Source: Goodreads, of course)
I’m starting my own new adventure and I LOVE IT. I mentioned yesterday, or was it last week…hmmm…anyways – I mentioned previously that I had signed up for singing lessons. What a great decision! I went for the first time today. In my initial vocal practice I only achieved 2 octaves in range, not bad but I’m sure I could do better. My nerves got the better of me.
I have social anxiety. I suffer from panic attacks when having to speak publicly unless it’s in certain situations. For instance – I can speak to a group of children about animal welfare and in fact have on behalf of my local SPCA (where I have volunteered and still do off and on). I can read aloud to a group of children. I can address a group of adults during social gathering. I cannot handle public speaking in order to present something to a group of adults. I get a sort of tunnel vision and forget things and even though I appear calm and collected and project well, I am crumbling inside.
Needless to say, singing in front of a stranger is panic inducing. BUT I DID IT! I’m so proud of myself. Also – he had me watch myself in the mirror to see how closed I was and how I needed to open up (my mouth, that is). Having to look at myself in the mirror for longer than absolutely needed is unknown for me. I am loath to see myself.
Singing lesson are going to have many benefits for me…I foresee a break from my addiction to food (yes, I really do believe now that I am addicted to food – more on that later). Having to stare at myself singing, I was so self-conscious. So self-aware. If I am to practice that way than I am to lose weight. There is no other way.
It’s time for a break from food, bad food that is.
I also see it helping with my anxiety as I HAVE to get over my fear of singing in front of strangers. My children and husband hear me ALL the time, it’s time others do as well (in small numbers).
With losing weight and a lessening of anxiety, comes more self-esteem, decreased stress, and increased energy.
I am so hopeful for this new adventure.
The only ones who know now are a couple of close friends, my husband, and – well – anyone who actually reads this LOL….I’m thinking not many.
YAY to optimism!
Time for some music…I love this version of Tainted Love…it doesn’t fit in with this post, but I don’t care – it’s just random.
Life Through My Eyes 